The Scare..

I must apologize for my lack of blog activity. Life kinda got busy for a while. In the mean time, things did NOT go so well.

I had stopped soda for a while..then I had one once in a blue moon..and then it increased again. Not to the extent it was before, but still bad, that paired with eating fast food again, have made my mission a complete and utter failure.

Last night, I started feeling chest pressure. Danielle, of course was concerned that there could be something wrong with my heart. I went to the hospital, urgent care..and they had me checked out. They took an X-Ray, Did some blood work..and asked me to stay overnight for observasion. At this point I was petrified with fear. After some time passed, I felt better and asked to go home. They advised against it, but I couldn't handle an overnight stay at the hospital..and I really was feeling a little better, so they let me go home. Right after we left I threw up in the parking lot. Since then my stomach has been a little off..but that's normal for me afer vomiing. Presumably I threw up because A. I ate too much earlier, or B. I had a gas station chicken salad sandwich. So we'll see what happens.

They wanted me to do a stress test to do more checking on my heart. My doctor told me that being as big as I am, I am playing a major game with my mortality. He said that being this big can cause heart attack, diabetes, high blood pressure, etc. It was a MAJOR wake up call.

I was afraid of the concequences before..but now, to have a doctor tell me that I'm risking my life and this is serious? I really need to change. Danielle agreed to change with me.
As of today, I did make an apointment to see a doctor tomorrow, and schedule a stress test if they still think I need it. And very early this morning, I was called and told my blood work came back normal and nothing was wrong with my X-Ray. Which is a good sign. But the game isn't over. I HAVE to change. I HAVE to. Apparently the moderation thing doesn't work because I don't have good self control yet, but No more soda, No more fast food, smaller portions.

This terrifies me guys. I don't want to die. I want to live. I want to be here for Danielle. I NEED to change. This time..it's not an option.

I plan to keep up with this more.

Thank you guys for reading. It means a lot to me.